Greetings from the trenches!

I have had a rollercoaster week.  It is so appropriate that its end is coming with new beginnings.  Last week I finally got the test results I had been waiting for.  The MRI didn’t show an obvious tumor.  That means that it is still in the cellular phase, which offers its own set of challenges.  Praise God that my bones are still in good condition.  My bone density scan showed that they are still well above average range for women my age.  Still at 105^th%.  Awesome!  The cortisol test that I took came back normal as I expected.  I did another one and hope it reflects how I was feeling last week.   That’s the health update, will keep posting as I learn more.

Saturday, I took Chloe to the church for the 10,011 Easter egg hunt.  I was excited about getting her dressed up to go.  I searched the town looking for red sandals for her to wear.  How come they always have lots of every size but hers?  It doesn’t matter what size she is in, I can never find the child shoes.  I also got a web cam so Chloe and I can communicate when I’m in Michigan.  I’m sure going to miss that little girl.  She is becoming Little Miss Priss.  She has to have her purse (with stuff in it), her jewelry, and hair in bows.  It is so different from raising boys. 

After the egg hunt, I was very sad.  I have not made an outward announcement about having Cushing’s again, but it is starting to get around as they are organizing the teams to come help me with the house.  There were lots of questions.  I don’t mind the questions about the disease, I was having a hard time with the questions that started with the word “when”.  I am such a control freak when I need to plan for my present and future.  It’s hard not having a plan or a timeline.   It was a good thing that I had someone to talk to later that night who cheered me up.  It is amazing how quickly this person has become so important in my life.  I am so very blessed!

Moods

They say that no news is good news.  I think “they” are STUPID!  No news just keeps you stressed out longer!  It has been over a week since I had my MRI and 4 days since I had the bone density scan.  No news.  Oh well, gives me something to hope for next week.

I have had to make some tough decisions this week, but now that they are made, I feel much better.  I have decided to definitely let the house go.  It is too much for me to handle and it just stresses me out.  I talked to Lisa at church and she is organizing a team to come help me get things sorted.  I have to figure out what I need to throw away, what goes in the garage sale and what gets packed.  It’s like “Clean house” or “Clean Sweep” Christian edition!   I need to reduce my stuff by at least 2/3rds.  I have collected so much stuff over the years.  I have 4 gravy boats for goodness sake!  It’s going to be a great garage sale!  These wonderful people are even going to work the garage sale for me since I can’t do it myself.  God has put me in a great place during these difficult times.  It is good to have family when my family lives so far away.  Thank you Lisa and Joann!

What else is going on?  Hmmm….let me see.  I am so ready to get this going and get to Michigan to be with friends and family.  It gets boring here looking at the same four walls.  I am looking forward to walking down to the lake or sitting on the front porch swing and listening to the loons at night.  I’m also looking forward to leisurely boat rides and fishing with Kevin.  I am also looking forward to meeting Amy and Joe and all the Michigan folks from Facebook.  It’s also really cool that my friends and cousins come up to see me when I’m in Michigan.  I can’t wait to see Theresa and gang, Kelly and Ryan and Maggie.  I hope to see the rest of the Urbin and Nuber crowd as well.  We always have so much fun when we get together.  It’s going to be a great summer.  The only downside is that I will miss Danny, Chloe and my friends.  I love them all so much.  I hope Danny and Chloe will be able to come for a little bit this summer.  Trevor is coming to visit for Jake’s graduation party.  It will be wonderful to see him in person.  I haven’t seen him since September.  I miss him and our great talks we had.  It’s tough letting your kids go out and make their own decisions.

Anyway, I can’t wait until life starts moving again.  I am in a positive mood and ready to take this fight with Cushing’s on again.  I have lost the first battle, but I WILL win the war!!

Love you all!

Trisha